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"Why don't you turn
off that light," she said.
"Because I don't want to turn if off." And I looked at
her. And I got back that stare. That blank stare that she always
gave to me. One of those blank stares that not even an animal could
give you. A look of utter hatred pointed in my direction that took
every one of my atoms and made them want to cry. How could someone
be so fucking mean? And the reason she couldn't do a thing was because
of her own enslavement. She couldn't get out of that chair. She
had decided to quit walking years before, even though nothing was
wrong with her legs. Some people would beg for legs in which to
walk with, but for her, she would rather not use them.
And that cigarette. She somehow was so elegant with that cancerette.
The way she held it in her hand, wrist cocked forward, smoke spilling
into the air with its carressing curves like the most beautiful
of curly hair. That smoke destined to come across the room, past
my left arm and my cheek, to get sucked into my lungs and filtered
back out. There was always a cigarette. And sometimes it would have
the whole length of it ashes, only to somehow destroy the laws of
physic's gravity, then slowly it would go down into the tray. Ashes
and ashes, butts to butts. I always liked the way she held that
cigarette. It may be the only thing I really liked about her.
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